yum yum in my tums

So last night, my boyfriend & I went to kaizen (MS?!) Where he indulged in some yummy sushi rolls & we both enjoyed sake & beer.

& then the nice chef made us a bird of sliced apples with banana sauce. YUMYUMZ IN MY TUMZ.

Damn right.

I one day want to live in a decent sized home, with a husband making some dinner & A martini to finish my Day.

Something washed over me today. Actually, more like came off of me. The icky icky feeling. Overall, great day/night. I was breathing in & exhaling with nothing ruining my rhythm. My brain seemed to function more like.. ohhh i don't know, me? That stupid insecurity has left my cerebral. Left it high & dry with me holding the keys & knowing what is next for me. Just taking it in.

Oh & did i ever mention that my cat is just the love of my life?!

On & on & on.

I seriously tend to feel that my mind can only hold so much more thoughts before it explodes. Honestly, It feels like it is about to just shut down & everything just scatter out like pandoras box. This past week i have finally come to terms with my constant need for MORE MORE MORE. Its like i need to feel like everything is unknown. To keep heart beat racing & My mind going. I love where i am & the people i have surrounded myself with. I'm not a teenager anymore & i honestly think it's a ruff patch that i'm hitting. WAHHWAHH, i sound like a little girl complaining.

God bless sex in the city, carrie couldn't have said it any better. I'm not perfect. & I feel like everyone, especially the person i like, will realize this. The moment i don't feel this will be amazing. Finally, i'm writing this. I'm not perfect. Maybe that is also a big factor of why i feel so uneasy.

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To this amazing new blog. Decided to get rid of the LJ. Leave all of disappointments & false dreams.

Freshhhhhhhhhhhhh. Can't get much better then this.