I have forgotten those moments where a certain song would just take all my thoughts and words out of my body and sum it all up in the melody. Sadly, this hasn't happened to me in a while. It has been an intense life changing 8 months. Leaving the nest of my parents for a false love. Then leaving that false love to my own place. Now, the plan is landing to the nest again. Out of the 8 months, this feels like the first real adult move i have ever set myself on doing. No bills nor "Adult things" can ever make this feeling seem bad.
I tend to get lost in my mind a lot more then normal. I feel like i'm worth a lot more then what i give myself credit for. I go into a shell at times. Hiding from what i want to say & the thoughts that plague my mind or the actions that take over my body language. Damn you. I sometimes wish that someone would look into my eyes & just know what just played in my mind & tell me the solution. I sometimes see the color of myself get splish splashed all over the town i walk on. All 'cause of me. Knowing to stop, I do at times. But with full force these thoughts & wants come at me. Having all these goals & knowing what i'm capable of seem to make me a lot more impatient then what i really am.
I just need to stroll my mind & town, letting myself paint the town with my glow.. SHOOOOOT.
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